ISWG: Losing Time

I guess it is only fitting to return to my blog with an ISWG post!

Pardon my hiatus from my blog. I was in warm, sunny, California, with my beautiful family. This year I only visited home twice. It is so hard being away that everytime I come home I am acutely aware of time. How much time has passed. How much time I have left with them. How much time until we are reunited.

I fear growing older, not because I don't want to be old, but because it means those around me are aging just as quickly. Time is enemy. Everytime I see my mother, she looks a little bit older, which makes me wonder how much time there is left to spend with her. What if, heaven forbid, something happened to my one of my sisters? Time with them would be snatched away in a blink of an eye.

My heart races just thinking about time, because it also relates to my writing. Work and life has kept me busy that I have fallen behind in my writing endeavors. Sometimes I find myself stopping and thinking, has two months has passed already? I could have been finished with a draft of a manuscript if I had only dedicated myself to it. Oh gosh, I need more time.

The urgency of time is always an undercurrent of my thoughts and cause of anxiety. How do you handle the race against time?

The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. Visit others in the group at Alex J. Cavanaugh's site  and connect with your fellow writers!

Big thanks to the December 3rd co-hosts: Heather Gardner, T. Drecker from Kidbits, Eva E. Solar at Lilicasplace, and Patsy Collins!